Today was one of “those days” – days when one feels
overloaded & overwhelmed.
I travelled back on Tuesday from a week of vacationing out
at Musana Camps, NHU’s beautiful property on the shores of Lake Victoria. But
by this afternoon, any rest during that week seemed hardly worth the piles of
work I came back to.
So many things to do, chiefly reading & processing
300ish letters from our primary & senior students to their sponsors. But so
many other things too, pressing things that I just can’t seem to make time for.
Budgets & emails & new sponsorships, and a pile of Christmas packages
for kids just waiting to be opened & checked.
I was tired and frustrated and on edge this afternoon. One
of my friends had stopped by several times to do various things at the admin
offices. So we had greeted & chatted a bit, and she could see I was tired.
Trying to get some of the letters read, I could just feel my
frustration building. A class where the teacher had written a letter and just
had all the students copy it (true, it’s a young class, but they should still
be able to answer simple questions for themselves). Other things that hadn’t
gone quite like I expected.
I was about ready to throw in the towel and go for a run to
vent my pent up feelings, even though it was 3 p.m. and I was nearly sweating
just sitting still in my office.
Then my friend showed up again. She handed me a manila
envelope, strangely shaped. Inside was a box of cold mango juice she had bought
for me.
Such a seemingly small thing – but to me it was not a small
thing: it was a big thing.
Because as she turned and left before I had even finished
opening it and thanking her, my mind flew back to Tuesday night.
That night, we women here at Kasana had started a
video-based Bible study: “Walking with God in the Desert,” by Ray Vander Laan.
He’s a Bible teacher who takes people out to the Holy Land and creates studies
about Christian history & heritage and lessons to be learned from that.
There have definitely been times in the past year and in the
past months when I have felt the blasting heat of a metaphorical desert wind.
Moving & living half way around the world from everything familiar isn’t
easy. Carrying a lot of responsibility for months can be a draining challenge.
But, as Ray reminded us, it’s in the desert we often are
reminded that it is God who is faithful and sufficient, and it is in the desert
times that we can learn to fall in love with Him all over again.
In the second video lesson we watched, Ray talked about the
concept in the Bible of God being the shade at our right hand. He said the Hebrew
word refers to what we call a broom tree. It’s more like a shrub or a bush:
something which can give relief from the heat, but not like an oak tree that
more completely blocks out the burning sunlight.
God doesn’t promise us that He will magically make all of
our problems disappear! But He does promise us that He will give us the shade
and relief at all times when we need Him. And His grace is sufficient for us to
take the next step, to make it through the next challenge. What’s more, God
often uses the community of His people to bring that shade to one another.
This afternoon, God used my friend to remind me about what I
had already so quickly forgotten. That box of mango juice was my broom tree for
the afternoon. I thank God for my friends here, including this one who’s “small”
act of kindness honestly turned around my whole frame of mind.
The only way to explain it is God. A box of mango juice
doesn’t really turn me from someone who’s frustrated and fed up into someone
who can take the next step and the next step and make progress in reading
letters. It was just a practical object lesson & reminder that God is
enough and He will provide the strength I need. I had written those same words
just a couple hours before, because I knew with my head they were true. But God
in His grace sent my friend with a box of mango juice because He knew I needed
to remember and feel it with my heart this afternoon.
Because of what my friend did for me, I was also able to
reach out to other friends and hopefully be a bit of God’s shade for them too.
That’s how God’s grace works. It’s not just something I take and keep for
myself. It’s something that I receive in order to pass it on to others – for the
glory of our loving Father.
So as you go about your day, maybe think about how you can
be God’s broom tree for others in their struggles. And don’t forget that God is
always there for you in your desert, no farther away than you can reach your
right hand.
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