Sunday, August 5, 2012

Who's in Control? Pt. 5


It’s a good thing I put at the end of my last post where I was intending to take this series, because as you can see my month got away from me! Now I am in the car in the middle if hilly Tennessee as my dad drives us back to Dallas, through a rainstorm at the moment.

As I stated previously, this post will cover the sermon I heard my first Sunday in the DC/Maryland area, which was June 10. The pastor was finishing a series about Samson, and his focus was on Strength and Weakness – the fact that our Failure can lead to Opportunities. Anyone who knows the story of Samson knows he messed up plenty. (Sounds familiar to my life!) As the pastor pointed out, Samson broke every part of the Nazarite vow that he was supposed to live by.

Rather than conquering the Philistines, he ended up as their slave. Rather than being a moral leader for the Israelites, he engaged in almost every type of detrimental behavior possible. I can’t imagine how disappointed and confused his parents were about all of this. Samson was a failure because he did what he wanted to do, when he wanted to do it rather than following God’s leadership.

And so as a consequence of his failures and his focus on himself, Samson found himself at the bottom, in a position of forced humility and servitude. Samson had chosen not to submit to God, and as a result he became enslaved and in a position of submission to the morally depraved Philistines.* They naturally saw their sudden victory over him as a sign that their god was more powerful than Yahweh.

BUT God was not done with Samson. Even though he had decided to depend on himself (and to some extent on his hair perhaps?), God did not write him off as useless. Yes, Samson’s actions had serious consequences, which God did not save him from. He lost his eyes – he lost the freedom he thought he had. During those long days circling around and around grinding the Philistines’ corn, Samson evidently came to a clearer understanding of how he should relate to God.

What happened next was proof that God doesn’t force us to be defined by our failures. Yes, failure impacts our relationship with God and with other people – but it doesn’t confine us to fail forever. Instead, God provides forgiveness and grace for those times when we depend on ourselves and as a result fail. As the pastor said, “We cannot undo the bad things we have done, but we can choose to be faithful from this point on” – though I would add that choice cannot be something that we drum up based only on our own strength.

The whole point of this sermon was that depending on ourselves leads only to disappointment. But at the end of the day, it is still so very easy to look at ourselves as the solution! In reality, only God’s strength and indwelling Paraclete Holy Spirit can save us from the failure into which we so easily stumble. But that does take action on our part: We must recognize our deep need of God and actively choose to submit – as contradictory as that sounds sometimes.

At the end of Samson’s story, God got the glory. As the pastor pointed out, Samson’s self-sacrificial choice to bring down the temple on himself and the Philistines was a heavy blow to that nation. The Philistines are not mentioned another single time in Judges. Through Samson, God brought an end of an era to a people who had turned their backs on Him. Out of Samson’s initial failure came an opportunity for God to be glorified. When Samson chose to give up his faith in himself, God used him to bring about His plans and purposes.

God can do the same for every one of us, and for anyone who surrenders.

*This ties in perfectly to the sermon I heard today, which is what I will talk about next!


Saturday, July 7, 2012

Who's in Control? Pt. 4: Living in Brokenness


{This one’s on the long side, sorry!}

The fact is that we like being good, complete, “perfect” people. Showing any sign of weakness or shortcomings is so often seen as a bad thing in our western world. We all know deep down inside that we are living a lie when we try to come across as faultless…but we do it anyway. We compare ourselves to other people and wonder why our life is such a mess compared to how put-together they appear.

But the reality is that every single one of us is just as broken.

We try to hide it from the view of others.

We try to ignore it, stuffing it deep.

But we can’t run away from it.

We know all about it.

We hurt from it.

Broken.

This ties into the sermon because Leeman talked about how we should submit not only to God but also to one another by being authentic with one another. I know I am broken. And if I stop to think about it, I naturally realize that other people are not exempt from failings in their own life.

So why do we try to keep up the façade? Why don’t we – especially within the body of Christ! – be willing to open up with trusted brothers and sisters and share our struggles? The reality is that often it can be beneficial rather than detrimental!

This whole idea really came home to me in April. It was just a tough month for me all the way through. Twelve pages in my diary are filled with a whole lot more questions than the detailed solutions I would love to have as a set pattern follower. And yet I can honestly say that month was one of the best months of my life. Because even though there were hard times, God was so gracious and He never deserted me (naturally!).

One evening a friend texted me asking for prayer. Long story short, I ended up sitting with her wishing I had the words to say to make everything all better in her life. That experience really opened my eyes to the fact that others have just as much pain bottled up inside of themselves as I have in me. Why do we hold it in? 
Why don’t we release it by admitting our feelings to trusted friends?

That evening, I journaled about the thoughts that flowed from the experience:

“We are all such broken people. We do NOT like admitting it, we do not like sharing it. We expect ourselves and one another to have life all put together. We think we have to be perfect in order to impress one another and often, I think, in an attempt to win God’s favor—to deserve God’s grace.
But that’s not how He works. He works through, not only in spite of, our brokenness. He calls us to come with humble hearts in recognition of our moment by moment, desperate need of Him….
Honesty is NOT easy. It is hard to let those safety walls we have built around us slowly come down.
It’s scary because we fear people’s opinions, we fear being hurt. And when we fear, it does demonstrate a lack of trust.* But it also points to a lack of experiencing true love. Because when people love one another as God loves, there is no torment—there is no fear. There is no uncertainty of how the other person will respond to what we do or say.
And so tonight has been a humbling reminder for me, because it calls me not to forget that I can love {another person through their} pain by God’s love and power alone.”

Over the next couple of days I kept thinking about this topic, and I came back to it in my next journal entry:

“Life here on this earth is hard. It really does just {stink} sometimes. When I’m confronted with how much pain & brokenness there is, especially in other people, it’s hard.
Hard to see why God would allow that—hard to understand why this is part of His plan. And yet it is! And that is the beauty in the midst of the pain; that is the reason we can hope through the hurt.
God is still sovereign, and He does see the end. He knows what we feel. He does not beat us up and leave us lying there broken. Yes, He allows BAD things to happen—but even those things are part of His bigger plan. He uses those experiences to grow us, to bring us into deeper and deeper dependence on Him….”

It’s tough to see beyond the pain of the moment to the amazing goodness which God has in store. And yet I firmly believe that if we would be open and real with one another and learn to accept and love one another, even as the broken beings we are, we could help one another to remember how God sees us. Because God doesn’t see His children as ugly, ruined objects. In His eyes, those who have been accepted into His family are clean and beautiful individuals. Flawed? Yes. Hurting in a world still full of pain? Yes. But that is not their real identity.

That’s what has been rolling around in my heart/head for a while. So friends, if I ask you how you are doing, I really do want to know. If you trust me and are willing to share your struggles, I pray He will overflow His love and grace upon you through me. If I open up and be vulnerable with you about what I am going through, I hope you will accept me as I am and point me back to what truly matters: Christ alone.

Next time I’ll rewind a bit to my Sunday at a friend’s church in Maryland, because the sermon there tied into this same subject {Funny all the various things God can pull from to make a point, isn’t it? :D}

*This had been a theme of my experiences last summer.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Who's in Control? Pt. 3


Sorry, my week got away from me!

The sermon I talked about last time was, as I mentioned in the first post, very convicting to me. It holds a lesson that I just need to keep being reminded of over and over because I am a spiritually forgetful being. I know good and well that God is the one with true authority over my life. And yet again and again I find myself making my own plans and staking my happiness on that rather than being willing to surrender to God’s will.

There are several areas of my life where this is particularly difficult. God is awesomely patient with me. So often though, I blame myself for having to surrender once again in an area that I thought I had taken care of before.

I guess the big picture truth behind my frustration is my need to accept the fact that I will never arrive at a perfect attitude here on earth. Rather, the Christian life is a process. It’s that moment by moment handing over of my will to His. But I am frequently too distracted to notice His outstretched hand, waiting for me to let go of my flurried feelings and childish plans.

As I was writing this, a song I had heard before but hadn’t really paid attention to the words of came on my mp3 player. It’s so applicable here {I love it when such “coincidences” happen J}. So watch this video of it and think about the words J

Speaking of songs – as I mentioned before I love the music at CHBC! In my two Sunday mornings of experience, they do a great job of picking songs that match with the theme of the teaching. On June 17 we sang one called “Speak, O Lord” which I appreciate. We also sang one I had never heard before but was absolutely applicable: “O Great God.”

All of these songs so accurately describe how I so often feel. I do want to listen and obey – and yet my tendency is to go on about my own business as though God doesn’t have time to be involved in each moment of my life and I have to do it on my own.

The offertory that morning was another great hymn – “Day by Day.” I’ve heard it in three different services this summer, I think. Must be that God’s trying to get that lesson through my thick skull…. J


The next segment will be a bit of a spin-off of from the sermon – something I’ve been thinking about for a couple of months but haven’t gotten around to blogging.


Thursday, June 28, 2012

Who's In Control? Pt. 2


Picking up from where we left off last time – summarizing Leeman’s sermon...

He went on to discuss six attributes of God’s authority:
  • 1.       Protects the lowly, gives to the needy – so often we think of authority as being involved in doing the opposite! Authority figures should use their power to lift other people up, thus creating an atmosphere of faith and trust.
  • 2.       God opposes those who oppose Him and shares the plunder with His people – Government must be used to pursue justice, or God will judge it! Any authority people have has been given by God, and we need to remember that!
  • 3.       God shares His authority with His people! – Christ is the center of God’s power on earth, and the church is God’s Kingdom. When people submit to God, He demonstrates His character through them.
  •       Under this point, Leeman talked about how Godly authority flows from Godly obedience. People must first be in submission to God before they can use authority in a God-honoring way (John 6:38-39). We need to learn to submit our autonomy* to God and the leaders He has placed in our spiritual lives. Once we are in submission, then God may trust us with more authority, as contradictory as that sounds on the surface.
  • 4.       God’s authority saves and justifies! – So often we think we can choose our own rule and determine our own path. We think that is what authority means. But for Christ, authority meant laying down His life, giving it up for others. We need to turn away from our false authority and follow God’s rule!
  • 5.       God draws diverse people into united praise – Here Leeman talked about the importance of worshiping together as a unified body of Christ, regardless of social class, ethnicity, married vs. singleness, etc. True freedom and true justice should be on display in God’s Kingdom.
  • 6.       Destroying those who hate God – God empowers those who recognize their own helplessness, but He resists the proud! Leeman encouraged us to ask ourselves whether we are acting as a foe towards God based on two questions: Do I believe God has the right to judge? Did I spend the last week rejecting/ignoring God’s rule, or did I rejoice in it?

Most importantly, Leeman concluded, God has used His authority to conquer sin and death for all people, and that saving power is available for all people (Eph. 4:7-8, 11, 15). In Ephesians 4, Paul quotes from Psalm 68 – but with a slight twist.

Psalm 68:18 says:
“You have ascended on high,You have led captivity captive;You have received gifts among men,Even from the rebellious,That the Lord God might dwell there.”

Ephesians 4:7-8:
“But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ’s gift. Therefore He says:‘When He ascended on high,He led captivity captive,And gave gifts to men.’”

See it? Psalm 68 shows God receiving gifts from men (which is His due as God), while Paul changed the verse to show God giving gifts to men.

So that is a summary of the sermon. Next time I’ll talk about its application to me personally.

*Interestingly, in the ethics class I’m taking we’ve been discussing philosophical theories of ethics, and Kant’s big point in his ethical formalism theory is that people are autonomous and it is immoral to do anything that goes against their autonomy.


Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Who's in Control? Pt. 1


Well, it’s summer time so you would think I would have more time to invest in writing…but the reality is that I am having a busy summer – and also that there are times when I feel too lazy to take the time to write about all the things I would love to share that God has been teaching me.  I’ve been putting off writing something for here for at least two weeks, and I’m finally going to do it!

The last several months have been hectically busy in all areas of my life, and as a result I have a long list of topics I want to cover in this blog but haven’t gotten around to writing yet. So here’s to a beginning to cover the list! This first group is going to be a short series simply because it’s on a couple of different but connected topics.

I moved into an apartment in DC on June 10, and the next week I visited a church that my aunt had suggested and that a family friend’s son happened to also attend.  I can honestly say that the two Sundays I have been there have been my favorite church services ever. The church is Capitol Hill Baptist Church, and it is just a few blocks from the Capitol building.

The service is two hours long. The first half, the worship section, is set up slightly like a liturgy.  We alternate singing (mostly hymns – which I enjoy!), praying, and reading Scripture. The prayers are focused on a specific topic, so there’s one for praise, one for confession, one for petition, and one for thanksgiving.  The offertory and the sermon come next, followed by a closing hymn. Then we have a few moments of silent reflection before the service is over.

The first week, one of the pastors was teaching on Ps. 68, and I think it was one of the most convicting sermons I have ever heard.  Both weeks the pastors have worked their way exegetically through the text, but they are also very intentional at making the sermon applicable to both believers and also those who are unsaved.  It is such a blessing to have this service available for the time I am here!

Anyway, back to June 17.  The speaker, Jonathan Leeman, emphasized God’s authority during the sermon.  The Psalm divides into several sections
  • a prologue (1-6)
  • God leading His people out of captivity (7-10)
  • Routing the enemies of His people (11-14)
  • bigger mountains being jealous of Zion because that is where God dwells (15-18)
  • God’s people vs. God’s enemies (19-23)
  • God’s people entering in joy (24-27)
  • enemies either bringing tribute or being scattered (28-31)
  • and an afterward focused on praise (32-35)
Leeman pointed out that we as humans tend to question authority, and especially to want to take God’s place of authority. One of the points that he made is that Christians should be living transparently and authentically, both before God and before our fellow believers.

Tomorrow I’ll post the conclusion of a summary of Leeman’s sermon, looking at six characteristics of God’s power.


Saturday, May 26, 2012

Celebrating Pentecost


A Joyous Pentecost to you, my friends!

What, wait – we mainline Protestant Christians don’t typically recognize the significance Pentecost…….  But why not?

Pentecost started off as an ancient Israelite festival held fifty days after Passover, to celebrate the giving of the law on Mount Sinai.  When Jesus rose from the dead centuries later, He began instituting a new order of things.  Forty days after Resurrection Sunday He ascended to heaven, leaving His disciples with a promise and a command: That the disciples would receive power from the Holy Spirit and that they were to be Christ’s witnesses to all the earth (Acts 1:8).

Ten days later was Pentecost, and early that morning as the disciples were gathered together in prayer, the promised Power arrived in vivid form.  The Holy Spirit enabled the apostles to fulfill the Great Commission given by Christ.  It is interesting to me that the Holy Spirit, the seal of the new covenant in Christ (Ephesians 1:13-14), came on Pentecost – a festival which had previously celebrated the giving of the law which was the foundation of the Mosaic covenant.

The Spirit of God came mightily to seal God’s chosen people in the new covenant on the same day that the Jews were celebrating the letter of God’s law—delivered in the Ten Commandments—that had established the old covenant.  God knows what He’s doing, doesn’t He?  :-)  The disciples probably started praying for the promised power soon after Jesus ascended.  They probably didn’t understand what was taking so long as they waited ten days with no (recorded) apparent progress.  But God’s timing is always perfect – and by waiting, He established an object lesson of yet another step in the institution of the new covenant: replacing the Letter of the Law with the Spirit of God.

So…all that was just introduction – and I’m just getting warmed up! ;-)  What I really intended this post to be about is the Holy Spirit in general, and more specifically looking at His character as described by one of the names Jesus used for Him.  {And it’s important to remember that the Holy Spirit really is a HIM and not an IT!}  This was the topic of my final research paper for one of my classes last semester.  The paper was 20 pages and ended up being a rush job…so this is more taking that topic and writing what I want to write about it, although I’m going off of the background I studied for my paper.  So while I may not cite anything in particular, my thinking has been influenced on this topic by the sources I used for that assignment.

In my opinion, the mainstream Church today {“Church” here referring to the universal body of Christ} – or at least the segment of the Church with which I grew up being most familiar – tends to downplay the role of living power from this third member of the Trinity in the day-to-day life of a Christian.  This is partly a reaction to the experiences of the Pentecostal/Charismatic branch of the Church.  Too often we seem to try and put God in general and the Holy Spirit especially into a box, to nail down what it is that He can/cannot do in our experiences.  And yes, I am particularly thinking of Cessationism – a viewpoint which I have grown up hearing and believing.  But in my paper and in this post, I did not and am not going to argue about which spiritual gifts are or are not valid practices today.  I’m not going to use Galatians’ list of the fruit of the Spirit to demonstrate how He is involved in our lives, or what particular areas He impacts.

Rather, I am encouraging us to zoom out, to view the Holy Spirit from a broader perspective than those narrow boxes we so often seek to fit Him into.  We like having things in understandable, manageable nuggets.  But God doesn’t come like that.  He comes as a holistic being who seeks to invade every part of our lives, conforming our whole selves to His image.  But He does not typically overrun our free will.  He awaits our invitation.

Regarding the Holy Spirit, I believe there is a term which ought to frame our conception of Him.  As I mentioned earlier, this is a name that was given to Him by Christ.  The setting was the Upper Room Discourse, in John 13-17 {or as I have also heard it called, the Valedictory Address of our Lord}.  The term is only used five times in the entire New Testament, four times in the John passage (14:16, 26; 15:26; 16:7) and once in 1 John 2:1 referring to Christ.  The Anglicized form of this Greek word is Paraclete.

So what does Paraclete mean??  Earlier translations use words such as “Comforter” and “Advocate” for the term, while some later translations simply Anglicize the word.  The latter do so because the original Greek term encompasses a variety of meanings which are not easily boiled down into one English word (“Paraclete.” The Anchor Bible Dictionary.)  One possible meaning of the term is “One Called to Stand Alongside.”  It is this all-encompassing view of the Holy Spirit that I think I personally and also the Church in general – from Cessationists to Charismatics – tends to lose sight of.  Instead, scholars seem to spend most of their time nitpicking over details such as the execution of particular gifts.

The early Church didn’t worry about that.  As I researched the writings of early apostolic fathers, I couldn’t help but notice that they frequently used Paraclete as a name with which to refer to the Holy Spirit.  As time went on, theologians began to philosophize about the details of pneumatology {does the Spirit proceed from the Father or the Son or both???  That relatively minor detail caused the first major schism in the Church} and the use of the name Paraclete seems to have died out.

In the class I wrote the paper for, we had a dual focus on orthodoxy and orthopraxy.  The first has to do with what you believe, the second deals with the practices you engage in.  In today’s world, the emphasis seems to be placed primarily on theological beliefs (orthodoxy), with the details of practice (orthopraxy) subsequently flowing out from that.  For the early Christians, however, the opposite was true.  They were taught and experienced certain things (the orthopraxy), and only later began to build frameworks of understanding (orthodoxy) around what they were already experiencing.

Now, I do realize that orthodoxy and knowing what I believe about certain things and why is very important.  Without theological frameworks, how is one to know what is biblical belief and what is heresy?  However, an increased emphasis on the details of doctrine can and has easily led to something of a downplaying of experience and living practice.

So what is my point in all of this?  Simple: While the study of theology is clearly important, don’t let that stifle your hunger for and experience of what God has in store for you.  Don’t get so bogged down in stridently insisting either that the gift of tongues cannot be given today or that the gift of tongues is a required mark of a believer that you miss the prompting work of the Paraclete in the simpler moments of your life.

In past eras, this third member of the Trinity was referred to as the Holy Ghost.  I was thinking about this recently, and I couldn’t help but be glad that we now typically use the term Spirit instead.  To many modern people, a ghost raises up the picture of a dead being, come back to haunt the world – a wraith that is not fully present.  This is not at all an accurate picture of God’s Spirit.  As God, the Holy Spirit is fully ALIVE and active.  Though we cannot see Him with our physical eyes, He is totally present nonetheless.

So friends, I hope you can take a moment today to celebrate the meaning of that Pentecost 2,000 years ago.  The Paraclete, God the Holy Spirit, dwells within you.  He has come to stand alongside you, always providing an available source of God’s total, living power.  He is not limited to a list of His gifts or fruits.  Rather, He is our Paraclete to meet whatever spiritual needs we have.  No matter what the situation is, He is abundantly adequate.

And for that, we all ought to praise God for His good gift!

Looking back.....

Clearly the increasing work load of the semester caught up to me and I allowed it to prevent me from writing more posts for this blog.  Last semester was the hardest semester of my life for a variety of reasons......but in many ways it was also the best semester.  Throughout all the tough stuff that I went through, God proved His faithfulness and His abundant grace over and over and over again.  He led me on a path of working through a variety of things, a process which included lots of thinking and journaling.  So just because a cataloging of the journey sadly didn't make it into my small corner of the web here does not mean nothing was happening.  I would like to write some more posts about this process, but becoming an increasingly independent adult and bearing the resultingly greater responsibilities of life makes it more challenging.  If you want the bite-sized, more frequently updated version of what God is doing in my life, check out my Twitter feed.  My posts from that are linked to also show up as Facebook statuses :)